I'm going through a rough time lately. I'm frustrated with God. I'm trying to figure out what in the world I'm supposed to be doing. Ever been there? Every prayer (and there are many) seems to begin the same way: "God, I don't know what you want me to do!" Ever been there?
I'm bored. I'm restless. I'm being under-utilized. But I don't want to just jump into something because I'm bored or restless or feeling under-utilized. I want to make sure whatever it is that I jump into next is the right thing.
Ever been there?
But this is what struck me today: God doesn't just call me to be a worker or a servant, someone who runs around and does things for God. He wants me to do stuff, but that's not the primary calling on my life. My primary calling is to be his friend, to grow in my intimacy with God.
That's an important thought for me, because it helps answer my recurring question. It's not an easy answer. It's not a comfortable answer. It's a very frustrating answer because it goes against my nature, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who has ever been there.
So, here's what I'm going to think about today, and I invite you to think about it with me:
Imagine asking God, "What do you want me to do?"
Now imagine God answering, "Come closer."